The Unnamed Story - Episode 001

You know who!

There are some things that not capable of describe. How can people describe their feelings and/or thinkings? By words, by symbols or with silence? I am going to try to describe myself by words in this blog, as story. However it has a lot of fear, worry and hopelessness. If you are ready, I am already ready. Here we go. [Maybe this story causes to improve my English and let off steam (For example, I have learned it now :))] (Please ignore my mistakes, hopefully I am going to fix them all) (You might open an instrumental music on YouTube at background while you are reading this story. The music's genre is: Tragic)

For more than 17 months, there are too many black rain clouds and foggy weather in my sky. It is only shining a few moments -Special thanks to my family, close friends and confidants-. I cannot tell anyone -except a couple of close friends- my feelings because of fear of Voldemort -You know who-. Too much things happened and most of them are happens in the tragicomic movies with Oscar Award. I can't do a doctorate, be an academician, publish my scientific articles, express my opinions, fall in love, enjoy my life and follow my dreams (a cherished aspiration, ambition, or ideal) (actually almost my all of the dreams have collapsed in one day - almost 2 years ago). I know there are too much people like or worst than me. I have a lot of friends - acquaintances suffer with these disease. That disease is not physical. It is mental. There are too many disasters on dreams, too many cloudy weathers and desperate life.  Despite all the things that I witnessed, my only hope is to go to abroad. My dreams (a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep) are giving some relief. It has lecturing scenes, familiar voices, supernatural messages and a blue sky. 

After than all the explanations and descriptions, let me tell the "unnamed story" of an unnamed friend. His story is top secret. (Please do not be an informer :D Because Voldemort is very very angry.) He was working in a university which has very sincere and warm atmosphere. He was happy. He was working too much, he had a regular life, his passion on work was incredible, he was following his dreams and it was too close. Some days he was going to home from work at 11 p.m. He was in love with 'love of his life', had togetherness plans with her and even they were selected the place that they are going to live. He was also made agreement with another university as academician and doctorate candidate -better working conditions but less warm- in another city. Everything was almost - almost great (super, awesome, unbelievable, incredible, indescribable, brilliant, significant). However one day has changed every every thing. (You know which) 

To be continued - end of the Episode 001.